I will Write

umubsobra kan…

i mean makauma talagan…

lol…

you’re forcing me to leave…

i better leave now, right?

i was a loser after all… lol…

gets?

haha i guess there is no longer hope for me… lol…

gets?

haha only one person can understand me without me talking… lol…

gets?

i’ll take back my wish… lol…

gets?

i will no longer wait… lol…

gets?

don’t waste your time… lol…

gets?

don’t pretend that you are nice… lol…

gets?

you are pretending…

you are trying to please…

lol… gets?

the person who understands me does not read this… he does not need to…

lol… gets?

my only comrade… i trust my comrade…

hehe… lol… gets?

stoopeed! miiii!

am talking to myself again… yeah i should be… lol… gets?

ano ba meron?

ala naman ah…

the things that you are doing are worthless!

it is not worth it!

rest your body!

rest your mind!

get enough sleep!

depression is sinking in again…

deym

deym in a million times!

wakanapakels!

napapagod ako…

ndi ko alam kung bakit…

nagising ako kanina nangingiyak na lang ako… lately, days are becoming sleepless? for what reason? it’s christmas and i don’t have money… deym deym deym… am working and am pennyless… PIMAN! i mean i wanna buy this and that for my family… but i can’t… simple am pennyless… depression is sinking i know… i know that in a day or two i will be getting sick… deym… yeah deym it and i am getting bigger… deym deym deym… deym about everything… i needed someone that i can speak with…

taz taz taz pagdating ko sa opis ampf… can’t sleep… i found myself crying… deym can’t understand why… matagal na akong ndi naiyak… i mean really cry… deym… what happened? what is happening? what’s going on?

i remembered papa… how can He just not take away papa’s pain? i mean he’ve been sick for awhile now… this year is the third christmas that he will be celebrating in pain…

deym deym deym… i hate it… i hate everything! this is making me sick! this is ridiculous! don’t make me Hate You… please… don’t make me Hate You…

terible! ndi pa rin tapos ung phone call ko… pers call ko pa lang tong kausap ko… ampf! ang bobo ko lang! litsi! deym deym deym… deym uli… geez… pprivate ko ba tong post ko o ndi? ;seesaw; wapakels! lol… sabi ni devil ndi ko daw ipprivate… ;devil; mananalo ang kadiliman sa mga susunod na araw… ano naman kung maging masama ako minsan… ano kaya… pero ndi ako iresponsable… lol… lol… at lol… what i am doing is being irresponsible… am i am i am i? litsi! wapakels na lang dude! lol… ang gulo ko… ang gulo gulo ko… ala akong makausap eh so so so susulat mode daw ako…

ayun taz na at ndi pa sya resolved… unrecognized pa rin device nya… cx will try it on a different computer… it’s freaking cold daw sa place nila… lol… how about here? the weather is fine for me… lol…

ciao

unheard, unseen?

unheard, i am shouting…

unseen, i am getting your attention…

reality bites…

reality is?

i dunno…

reality your peys!

bitter?

sweet?

bitter sweet?

sour?

lol? funny?

we will be gone…

i will be gone…

you will be gone…

i don’t exist…

you don’t exist…

everything will be lost…

everything will be forgotten…

happy?

yes, you!

you are happy!

do i know better?

you don’t even know what is better…

lol? funny?